Ghøst

i don’t do no drugs
cus they always kill
everything i fucking love
i don’t go to clubs
i am not the plug
but my phone is blowin up

fuck emotions
i don’t wanna own them
i don’t wanna see another
day of commotion
focused but hopeless
oh shit im broken
i can be fixed but the
potion too potent

fillin up my lungs
like the pump into a gas tank
blowin out the poison to the air
for the last laugh
sometimes life sucks
and i know it
that’s why you gotta
keep going

i keep on going
i cannot stop
cus im growing

i used to fuck with people
now i treat them like a phase
cus i told them i was down
then they laughed up in my face
had a frown
then u jumped up out the frame
one hand painting pictures
other hand counting days

i put in 100
they throwin back 50’s
like i was never with it
but your girl was tryna kiss me
sneak diss me?
bitch i been clearin history
since i was fucking 12 watchin
titties on the big screen

i stay up late
then i skip the morning
they having lunch?
well, i’m fucking snoring
i stay up late
then i skip the morning
they having lunch?
well, i’m fucking snoring

i keep on going
i cannot stop
cus im growing

i keep on going
i cannot stop
cus im growing

im anxious leave me alone
the evidence typos every word on my phone
and when i speak in trembles
my short nails they resemble
the fucking speed of my heart rate
chest like a speaker
double text me she said o
like an ether
chemistry what i feel when
i see her
chemicals reactions in my brain when
i feel her
repeating what i say
i do the same shit everyday
wake up hate the fucking world
go to back to sleep love to decay

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

man on a mission
dismissing bitches
that aint submissive
im cuttin my ties to
count up like a math test
that bitch look good in a black dress
sippin on liquor she on my bed like a mattress
i lie two faced like an actress
digi faces in my bank no cash yeah
im not a rapper im stacking cash like a rapper tho
i leave a bitch dead like they layin in the catacombs

i can never stop now
hit the mall and ball out
cashin out on designer boxers just to fit my fuckin balls now
them bitches see the clout and so they call now
i never pick up always pull out hol up pause now
i never play i hate the spring im in dismay
im never coming back but when im back please gimme face
but go slow shawty this is not a race
unless we talkin bout tay k then beat the case

Story classic as Motown
She wanna throw down
But that’s alright, go ahead and fight,
Ima go ahead and go home now

Love is there; now love has passed
Replace me with my better half
Now I’m all on my own

Burning out no progress
I need to process
I’m lost and I can’t stop
The only thing that I’d protect
I know you see what you meant to me
Pray to god that I haven’t peaked
I need to be alone

I’ve been running dry tell me why I’m here
Lose everything I once held dear
No happiness for me I fear
Melt my brain till it runs out of my ears
And I’m not gonna stop pull it fast when I pop, tucking the stash when we dash from the cops
I watered the seed but there’s rot in the crop,
Would have left it for you if you asked me to stop

But she don’t get what I’m saying..
Why do I try to explain it? Why are you always sedated?
Never as happy as when she was staying
But I knew she’d leave eventually
Now Watch me ruin everything
I’m Better off alone

I’ve been isolating and running up my debt
I hate the way you play, I know you haven’t missed me yet
And I been running running running, but there just ain’t no running left in me

Swallowing my pride now, I have been replaced
We Haven’t talked in months I miss you screaming in my face
And I’ve been burning burning burning out but there just ain’t no fire left in me

I haven’t left this room since the moon was waning
Going through changes I’m done with your phases
But I can’t erase this feeling I’ve known so long

…. so long to the one I hate,
A little twist of fate and I raise these stakes
Done with the fake, I’m moving away
It’s in my bones yeah these are the breaks,

It’s alright that she’s in the wind,
And time heals all if we all just pretend
That we gave our all and it just wouldn’t mend
I hope that I never see you again

Cause every time that I see you,
I want to believe you but
Every time all we do is fight,
Forget that I’m so see-through
You’ve always been a mystery, we’ve got too much history it’s time to block your phone

Now she’s says that she hates me..
always trying to break me,
Go ahead and replace me,
Ask your new dude how I taste please
I hope you know I hate your guts
I’ve finally had enough
I’m better on my own

I’ve been isolating and running up my debt
I hate the way you play, I know you haven’t missed me yet
And I been running running running, but there just ain’t no running left in me

Swallowing my pride now, I have been replaced
We Haven’t talked in months I miss you screaming in my face
And I’ve been burning burning burning out but there just ain’t no fire left in me

We knew that this would never last
I have my fears and you had your past
But you look so right i had to ask
How could i see the harm in that
So think of me driving fast
Blacked out in a Pontiac
It will break my heart
If you’ll ever darken
Don’t crack

I didn’t want to drag you down
But when you weren’t around i lost my crown
Couldn’t take the sound
Of your breath not being there
I didn’t want to drag you down
I was gone too long
All i left was the tape
Of the songs i was wrong
It made your arms more empty

Had no chance to end it well
How far i fell
No way to tell
Wouldn’t hurt you like the last
Wouldn’t waste what time you had
So think of me driving fast, oh
It’s called i loved killed my ass
Girl save yourself
Don’t take this hell
Up and leave me, don’t look back

UR AURUS SO FAKE FOOL
LOOK AT THIS SHIT ON MY TABLE
BETWEEN HER LEGS I’M ENTANGLED
BAG OF CRUSHED DREAMS FROM THE ANGELS

HOW DO U LOVE ME U DON’T LOVE URSELF
I’M TRYING TO THINK FOR MYSELF
I WOULD JUST RUN BUT MY BAGS
TOO BIG WITH CARDS I’VE BEEN DEALT

DON’T NEED A BITCH
I NEED A DOLLAR N I NEED A WHIP
I NEED A CRIB BY THE DIAMOND SEA STRIP
FUCK ALL THESE BITCHES
THEY ALL ON MY DICK

HOW DO U LOVE ME U DON’T LOVE YOURSELF

NEED STOP DRINKING MIND SLIPPING LIKE HELL
THEY LOOK AT ME DIFFERENT, PROBABLY AS WELL
I CAN STILL SEE THROUGH THE ENERGY DEALT

UR AURUS SO FAKE FOOL
LOOK AT THIS SHIT ON MY TABLE
BETWEEN HER LEGS I’M ENTANGLED
BAG OF CRUSHED DREAMS FROM THE ANGELS

HOW DO U LOVE ME U DON’T LOVE URSELF
I’M TRYING TO THINK FOR MYSELF
I WOULD JUST RUN BUT MY BAGS
TOO BIG WITH CARDS I’VE BEEN DEALT

side note ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold
cause if not imma rot all alone

rot all alone cus i stay locked in my home
i only see the fucking light when my friends are getting stoned

i don’t smoke that shit my brain too fucked up
if i could i would i always seem to have the worst luck
anxiety embedded in my bones
when i turned 10 man i always felt alone

9 years later you know im still floating
above the rough ocean treading in emotions
sippin on the potion plan to turn my ghost in
i will fade away no one ever fuckin knows me

side note ps i would go back
to the scenes i keep seeing in my flashbacks
on the nights when i dream it never makes sense
cross the line and hurry back like im defense

breathe swallow air then i dive in the deep end
calmer underwater love when everything is silent
seeing faces even when im not dreaming
tell me are they real i really hope that you can see them

side note ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold
cause if not imma rot all alone

Surrounded by leaders
We are the dregs of life
Do not panic, leave no trace
Pretend to not care
Do you ever dream about making a difference
Do you ever dream about making a difference


I have waited all my life
For someone to get me out of here
I never knew the view from the edge
Of the world would look like this


Our thoughts beaten senseless
Collecting compassionate stares
Blind to the world in front of us
Death to your own will
Surrounded by deceivers
Come reap the harvest with me
Break hearts just to feed the anger
The anger that used to be love

From the shadows, into the black light… 

 I am caught, tangled in,
Wrapped and quartered,  
Tripping up and over
Time, lived again,
For just a moment,
Missing pieces find me,  

I sweat and, I ache for,
Your eyes and the way you breathe,  

And I wake, saying your name
And I wake, saying your name

You are more, than warm belief,
Melting skywards,
More than silence broken,
I am, whole again,  
For just a moment,  
Until the morning comes,  

And I wake, saying your name
And I wake, saying your name

You said you better believe it,
I said you don’t even know

Time lived again for just a moment,
Missing pieces find me,
I am whole again, for just a moment,
Missing pieces find me

The way that your heart falls
Inside of that bottle
Makes me accept the truth

We’re not young but not old
Just look how our past rolled
Us both inside a cocoon

Still feeling nauseous
After I gain consciousness
Wish I could see things through

Am I still obnoxious
How’s my new confidence
It’s still fake I’m still not worth you

Curled spine, cold like
Crushed dreams in the Summer time

Lost by night light
It’s still the same, nothing feels right

I can’t write, am I worthless
I think that I peaked, don’t deserve shit
I want selfishly, never earned it
I want to make you warm like those pills did

I wanna get my wrist like the winter
Can I be that drug in your nose hairs
I wanna be the deck, not the splinter
I wanna get my wrist like the winter

I feel the push of the waves
on my skin as I swim
to the beach where you live

The flowers have wilted
and I miss your lips
felt love but I feel like shit

And I fought for a while,
but I never did mean what I said
And I can’t be in denial
I’ve got to accept that you’re gone
I’m biting my tongue